Blues

 

I am just getting over a nasty cold. The covid test said negative, at least , But I was waylaid for days. Still coughing.

The Avatar film is on tv now, distracting my focus. The last time I watched it, my eyes were so bad I didn't see the details like I can now. 

I'm having a broke Christmas. The Grandkids will have to deal with not getting their normal Money gift. In the past I have been generous and given away several paychecks of giftcards. Not this year with the inflated cost of everything. I have started a new job, and later than I wanted. 

Hopefully I will make the January bills. Most companies are not hiring here to avoid paying out more funds before New Years. Everyone is buckling down on spending. Groceries have been costing an arm and leg around here, along with rents, autos, repairs, and fuel. Minimum wage in MA will be up to $15 per hour the first of the year, and cost has been passed on to consumers in wild price inflation, so the increase is helping no one. I have been spending very little cash, getting it to stretch longer. 

Luckily, I have saved up nonperishable food for such an occasion. The food problem for me, is being unable to keep myself gluten-free and low-carb to use my stored goods. I have been eating that way since early last year, so I expect to put some of the weight I'd lost back on in order not to go hungry. Also, the food we're making at work all has high carbs and gluten, so I shouldn't have very much, even if it's free. 

In 10 days I'll go off diet at Christmas anyhow, just to eat the dinner at my daughter's. I will have the Xmas day off instead of the Eve for once. At least I won't be forced to work on that day, as the business will be closed. Then my other daughter will be visiting for a few days. She is low carb too. I'm very proud of her weight loss over the past year. She is back to her HS size. She even ran a 5k marathon this month. 

As the year 2022 winds down so much has changed for me. I may not have much time for assessment, but I am putting in effort to get back to what is important to me, instead of feeling helpless to do that.